let's just put it this way: i've had so many nightmares this year of such awful, inspiringly horrible, and weird imagery, that in a way i wish i was still in film school so that i could exorcise that shit on some cellulose.

current typical example: "In today's nightmare someone cut 'LEFTHANDEDLY' around two different, separate fingers on my left hand, with a knife." all day i've been touching the middle joint on my middle finger and the base joint on my ring finger just to feel how they're not cut open, as if in some preparation for the day when they will be, so i can remember what they were like before. i could feel it in the dream. it hurt. it almost hurts now. they were crudely carved in letters (3/8") that would be too big to actually fit such a large word around a finger. the only way to see what it said was wipe away blood and look at the actual deep cuts, and closely look all the way around the fingers multiple times.

why would my brain show me this? is it some sort of arthritis message?

the kinds of body horror and nonsensical associations i experience most days would be prime fodder for experimental film. yeah, i know, "just do it." not that easy.

i do have some ideas though. first drafts at best, but there's some things going on up there besides nightmare distilling.

i would like some more interaction from livejournal.

i know "write more", and i will, but what else should i do?

so let's try this:

What would you like to know about me?

This should be basically self-explanatory.

(from fiction is lying).

it seems a bunch of you got your wish. loudtwitter hasn't been up for a few days. i will have no way of searching for how clever i was that one time.

yesterday's twitter noise:

• 18:08 You're not supposed to care about Billy Mays. He was the worst kind of tv whore: LOUD. Get back to mourning Mr. Jackson. #
• 00:22 You know what to do. ♫ blip.fm/~92h7r #
• 00:43 Hilarious cameos in Jay-Z's new video for his excellent anti-auto-tune single: videos.onsmash.com/v/k21gMUjJzUIkLyjR&ccolor=CC #
• 01:10 What were the skies like when you were young? #
• 01:20 Ah, the Matrix song. Dude fell asleep on his keyboard while listening to Moby. But still, it's the Matrix song. ♫ blip.fm/~92iuo #

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yesterday's twitter noise:

• 16:53 Twitter has, by far, the worst support system I have ever seen. It's just unfathomable how the site stays up or works. #
• 16:54 Solution to my not receiving updates from people I follow: Nothing. They don't know what's wrong. #
• 05:40 Crysis is awesome. I think I beat it, but the ending is such a bunch of half-assed bullshit, I'm still not sure. Credits are even bullshit. #

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yesterday's twitter noise:

• 03:39 You must trick yourself back into thinking positive. Things don't work otherwise. #
• 03:40 So I took a couple week break from Half-Life 2: Episode 1 only to come back and have about 2 minutes of the game left after my save. Duh. #
• 03:44 In a few more weeks my sweet beardlet and mustache will be about as solid as Leonardo DiCaprio's that one time. #

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yesterday's twitter noise:

• 15:08 Real news sites: "cardiac arrest; rushed to hospital." Celebrity gossip sites: "dead." tinyurl.com/mwhvze #
• 15:27 TMZ reports death: 2:20. Doctors declare death from coma: 3:15. How does this site stay up? Whoring traffic for lies. #
• 15:31 So Michael Jackson dies and Transformers 2 comes out in the same week, i.e. my childhood removes its face with a shotgun. #
• 17:29 The video for Speed Demon is like having the 80s vomit clay all over your face: bit.ly/YSW2q #
• 17:40 Seriously though the best Michael Jackson video is for Leave Me Alone: bit.ly/FnB68 #
• 18:05 Oh, Wikipedia, you so insensitive: imgur.com/1VcFm.jpg #
• 21:40 @jpmatth Seriously? Why? #
• 23:16 @jpmatth lol@paying for windows and no i haven't messed with 7 #
• 05:06 God damn that's a sharp headache. It will pay off when another mass of slugs die though. Agh. #

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yesterday's twitter noise:

• 23:53 The only way out is up. #
• 03:25 Revel upon the corpse of the Virgin Megastore: bit.ly/sOCGQ #
• 03:35 Last year's big mistake is completely destroying me. #
• 03:54 Blah blah blah fix it. #

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yesterday's twitter noise:

• 15:45 Obama: "I know everyone here's on a 24-hour news cycle. I'm not." bit.ly/w0rgI #
• 17:57 I want to be a vassal of the Burger King. So bad. #
• 23:56 Broke the emergency brake off the braincoaster. It's screwing with my circadian arrhythm. Energy levels would make a fucked up spirograph. #
• 00:02 Only when I already feel like shit do I manage to dump and entirely full Brita pitcher all over everywhere. #

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yesterday's twitter noise:

• 13:16 Tired of waking up unable to breathe. #
• 05:43 Chuckle a bit for Ed McMahon, won't you. #

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yesterday's twitter noise:

• 02:52 52 and 8 on Ambush (Call of Duty 4; M16lolA) is going to be a new record. 23 kill streak. #

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yesterday's twitter noise:

• 22:52 Tagged 3400 songs and had a complete breakdown at the credits of Wall-e. Kill me. #
• 23:37 @dlbags I didn't get choked up. I had a flashback from my horrible job and lost it. #
• 23:39 @jpmatth It's well done, but when you have to clean up during it for months at the theatre it triggers very bad things. Total flashpoint. #
• 00:35 So there's a fancy youtube that works on the Wii, but it doesn't work worth a shit. Less than 30fps for flash video? Are you serious? #
• 01:16 Meghan McCain handled getting her ass handed to her pretty well on Bill Maher's show. Not necessarily graceful, but it was brave. #
• 01:55 @EliseKulpa It was brave of her to pretend like she was doing something remarkable by going on Bill Maher and getting her ass silenced. #
• 02:24 This proverb shouldn't apply to my job search: "It cannot be found by seeking, but only seekers shall find it." #
• 05:04 I can already tell Firefox 3.5 is way faster. #

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yesterday's twitter noise:

• 18:43 Alright. I'll admit I got super sick this morning, but it's worth all that trouble if I can kill even 20 slugs. #
• 19:07 Live streaming puppies (now having a nap): bit.ly/Ulqlt #
• 19:21 Kraftwerk is perfect for light rain. ♫ blip.fm/~8jn4h #
• 19:23 @jpmatth there's 20 slug corpses out there now. it's raining so there will only be more. alcoholocaust is the only option. they eat plants. #

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yesterday's twitter noise:

• 17:44 I didn't get that job, but I'm not done clawing around for job right under it yet. God dammit. #
• 21:48 I am making the sacrifice; currently drinking 8.1% Steel Reserve talls to use as slug bait/killer on the porch. #
• 23:37 It's official. I am now at war with slugs. THERE WAS ONE IN THE HOUSE! It crawled in the patio door, so that door now has a salt firewall. #
• 23:37 @waderandolph yo i need a job where you work #
• 23:47 It's surprising how satisfying splashing horrible beer all over the porch was. Motherfucking slug massacre. Salt is just too subtle. #
• 00:39 Dear spammer emarketing get rich quick twitter faggot robots: stop fucking following me. #
• 02:34 Prototype is an easy 14 hours with little frustration. Nice to see developers with balls that know you want to smash the fuck out of things. #
• 02:39 Every time I tell emarketing assholes not to follow me on twitter I gain like ten followers. The hate, it burns. #
• 03:06 @swear_bot hey guess what! fuck you! #
• 03:42 "The best revenge is to live on and prove yourself. Be stronger than those people. And then you can come back." tinyurl.com/m9p4rj #
• 03:58 @steveagee please keep putting up youtube improv videos. i would pay, but i'm a broke pathetic retard. #
• 04:02 I just want to reiterate that while it may not sound so, this song is the essence of positive thinking. ♫ blip.fm/~8i02t #

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rage headache

yesterday's twitter noise:

• 16:29 A horse walks into a bar. The bartender says, "Why the long face?" The horse says, "Because I just got Willow Palin pregnant." #
• 17:04 Well, at least the 24-hour xbox update changed the website. I think. #
• 00:22 Scraping bottom has rarely felt so awful! #
• 00:32 The biggest surprise about Prototype for me is that the storytelling method is involved, novel, and totally works. #
• 04:52 Do I have Obama's Senate health insurance yet? #

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yesterday's twitter noise:

• 17:24 If they had called me, I would've said something already. #
• 19:41 Moral of the Story #1: Don't get your hopes up, ever. #
• 19:41 Moral of the Story #2: They aren't really going to call you, no matter how firmly they state that they will. #
• 19:42 Moral of the Story #3: I am still not a pessimist; you just get to live in a better reality than I do. #
• 22:54 Why did the chicken cross the road? To fuck Willow Palin. #
• 23:09 Twitter was cool when I was suspended, but now that I'm back and still not receiving anyone's updates it's EVEN BETTER. #

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yesterday's twitter noise:

• 17:15 I HAD DREAMS ABOUT FUCKING AND FLYING NOW TO JUST GET A JOB TOMORROW #
• 17:22 All flying over people in my suit, jacket flapping, telling them calmly, "I control all of this." That is why we have dreams. #
• 17:38 My twitter account was suspended for a week by automation and is now back. They banned me for farting into the microphone too loud. #
• 18:00 Is it too soon to put a picture of my balls on twitpic? #
• 18:26 @micfri yo everybody it's micfri! #
• 04:55 I must reiterate...Prototype is hot shit. #

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that went well. maintaining bodywide tension until tuesday.

i keep wanting to say "is twitter fixed yet?" on twitter. :(

google has marked my website as malicious. nothing on my site has changed for quite some time, and i've completely checked out everything. the twitter suspension possibly made google think my site always asks you to log into the twitter api. this is either twitter or google's fault, and now i get to spend a bunch of time fixing it.

another good question is how does google manage to get in between me and my own website. that's fucked up and would make a more paranoid person completely lose their shit.

what a mess.

update: twitter's fault. twitter's suspension of my account made the twitter widget on my website ask you to log in every time you visit the site, making google think my site was trying to get you to give up userinfo upon visiting. i can't believe it.

there won't be a twitter spam update today because my account was suspending for spamming. i cannot begin to imagine how that happened. i have submitted a request to have it fixed, and i'm not terribly happy about the mistake.

this sure as fuck better not have anything to do with loudtwitter.

yesterday's twitter noise:

• 18:46 Jay-Z says fuck autotune, and he's right: kreativesouls.com/?p=1666 #
• 22:39 More soldiers? Well how about we bring more turrets. Yes! @gardenofevils is an idiot savant at games. #

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yesterday's twitter noise:

• 12:40 Massive amounts of MP3 organization done. 1.5G removed, 385 tagged, and tons of empty folders and garbage deleted. #
• 21:10 Fucking Enzyte asshole gets 25 years for hundreds of millions in fraud; gets his mom sentenced too: tinyurl.com/5ky6c2 #
• 03:50 Everything GlaDOS said is true except the adoption thing! I'm a terrible person. #
• 04:19 @jpmatth Moral of the story: go outside. Problem with moral: heard it two years ago and it's night time. #

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yesterday's twitter noise:

• 20:33 Meanwhile, many students apparently were shouting, "Why are you killing us?": bit.ly/QYy4d #
• 21:16 Also Chinese police have ringed Tiananmen Square, to prevent people marking the 20th anniversary of the massacre: tinyurl.com/plmwau #
• 21:37 CNN also got their camera blocked by plain clothes cops (WITH UMBRELLAS) in Beijing: tinyurl.com/ppoxx2 #
• 01:15 Oh my god. I think I just applied for Al Bundy's job. The American Dream™. #
• 03:48 Even listening to Lamb for a few seconds is near intoxicating. ♫ blip.fm/~7o7fu #
• 04:31 @jpmatth fear of fours, but i like the self-titled the best. #

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yesterday's twitter noise:

• 16:52 "Among Twitter users, the median number of lifetime tweets per user is one." This is why twitter needs to evolve: tinyurl.com/p87oko #
• 17:39 My dad would say, "Getting almost tackled by multiple dogs multiple times does not make that a brisk walk." I would say my ass is kicked. #
• 20:13 "Je ne demande pas mieux que d'etre convaincu." www.112gripes.com/index.html #
• 23:37 She thought I had lost it. I was training the speech recognition and she thought I'd gone full shining with the repetition. #

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This should basically be self-explanatory.

(from fiction is lying).

yesterday's twitter noise:

• 19:05 Watch me eat too much beefaroni (ugh): bit.ly/4GWQS #
• 01:55 So uh, what percentage of E3 announcements so far have been sequels? 75%? 80? Industry is caving in on itself. #
• 02:06 Don't get excited about this Xbox Natal thing. You know what's going to happen. They want to corner the shovelware market. #
• 02:50 Every episode of The Prisoner is now free online, and everyone should watch it: bit.ly/qhTNQ #

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